Idk if I'm a normal pisces?

I dnt like the water often... I am little moody everyone iz at sme point n there month!! Lol I've beeen with almost 5 signs... They cheated on me... Cancer ripped my heart out n spit on it twice... Vindictive them cancers r. Leo has prob beeen my addition... Yikes worst physical realationship ever... Abuse in every form known 2 man. & yet I kept close to the leo thru his unfaithfulness, hurtful wrds, pirceing looks. I was so intrigued by the lion not trustn me? Idk I need advise pleases!?