Not feeling myself, don't know why I'm feeling like this HELP!!?

okay im just a couple years older than you im 19 and i went through the same stuff ( cutting, drinking, smoking, and shop lifting) so i know how you feel and yes ive had times where i was going to relapse, but your probably have a stress disorder you can go to the doctor over it and get treatment. why is money an issue? your only 17 don't worry about money in less your about to lose your house or starve to death. And i went through this time with my dad where i didn't talk to him and it stressed me to. you just need to call him and talk to him and get back to a friendly level with your dad on just a talking basis it'll take stress off and you don't need to drink alcohol is a depressant it wont help. and talk to your mom or one of your friends about cutting you just need someone to listen to you. and when your talking to your ex tell him you need actual advice not just him saying it will be ok And talk to your mom she mite be able to help