Can i be a good father? mine wasnt?

I'm not a father yet lol but I want to in the future but I keep thinkin will I ruin my childrens life I reed nearly everywhere parents who havnt been lovd by their own parents or been abused by their parents tend to tke out on their children. I dnt hv kidz but wat if I'm like tht with my chldren. I spent my childhood hating my father he used to hit me I got into a lot of trouble with school and police I usd to spend nights wondering why fthers been lyk this with me since I was 4. I'm 19 now wen he stppd beating me he used to curse me an sey if a parent cursed his child he'll never becom anything in life. Both of my parents I think if u was to ask thm hus thre least favorite it will prbz be me thts how I feel anyway. An I thnk my dad htes me. I feel sumtimz lyk his cursing me is actually affecting me . sme dayz I think To my self if I hd a chnce to rewrite histry id erase my self frm it i didnt ask for this. If u cnt luv me thn then tell me without disrespct il be hppy is tht to hard am i being selfish?Why's life so damn hrd lol srry for the typos using a phone. Thnx a lot in advance.